CHAOS

 Maybe that’s the best description.

Items being sorted, packed, 

Moved to the living room, the porch

No other place to put items

That belong to a long passed MIL

Saving them for the son

Who wants them saved

But will go into shock when he sees the amount of unused 

Long forgotten items.

Then

Unpacking my stuff

Or some of it.

Half will probably stay packed.

Too much STUFF!

I won’t be taking a UHAUL to heaven tho.

I can easily leave the STUFF  behind.

Days are getting easier

But still so much to do.

I try to enjoy the sky & beautiful countryside during small parts

Of each day.

Consumed

 Maybe even frozen

Agitated

Aggravated 

Conflict every day.

Sleepless nights

Surrounded by clutter

Disarray

Lost emotionally.

Only finding peace

When I sit with the dawgs.

I SHOULD HAVE STAYED

Maybe another month? Another year?

I don’t know.

 There’s a song - A thousand years ~ doesn’t quite apply to our situation but I do feel like I’ve loved you for a thousand years.  

I know you, but I don’t know you.  

I understand you, yet I don’t.

So much of our time spent together 

will 

oft be thought of when the moon shines full until it slivers away.

Will oft be thought of when a gentle breeze rustles fall leaves

Will be oft thought of When the skuye sends up the colors of blue earth shadows, lines of orange 

And fluffy pinks until the sun sinks.

A Journey

It’s been a journey 

Almost 17 years

From passions fire to coals gone cold

Never forgotten 

A bond so sweet

Stirred a gentle breeze

A few lingering embers

Caught to flame

And yet again to wain

Gentle, kind, your love so sweet

Could not compete

And you turned the other way

With stranger pull from elsewhere.

In loves journey

Take a stand

Let loves passion fire

Love -wild & free

Our hearts are tangled

Complicated

When we are together

It’s hard to define

It’s comfortable

A warm embrace

And inner desire held back

It’s a dance of joy accompanied by pain

So complicated adding strain

A kiss meant for the cheek?

Somehow met lips

Almost awkwardly 

Like teenagers first kiss were we.

We tried again

But it’s complicated

Lacking total release

Of love and friendship deep

We find peace and companionship

Warmth in the embrace and unspoken love

It’s complicated 

For me

Not quite understanding

Why we couldn’t “be”

I love you that is true

But why couldn’t we-just be?

 I’m wondering 

Where are you?

Do you see the same moon

As I do?

Haiku by me

 

“THEY” will never break me! “They All went to the same school!”